Love Is In Bloom

I was overjoyed yesterday to be able to hear my baby's heartbeat! I have to admit I had been worried about this visit and hopeful everything would be alright. Well, it was! :) I have been very sick recently, but since yesterday I have been feeling better. Part of me thinks that is bc I feel like I have purpose again! Feeling sick for weeks at a time has made me feel a little useless. Now more than ever I know nothing I go through for this baby is in vain! Thank you Lord!

I've spent the past two weeks trying to find ways to keep food down. Being nauseated really puts a damper on life. This is for a good cause though, a baby! I pray it is as healthy as can be as I feel so sick.

Logan and I are having a great time here in Kansas City! The Lord has been so faithful and kind to us these past 10 months of our marriage and I am so grateful. He has given us so much grace and poured out his kindness. I feel his presence with us and it is a wonderful feeling. I want to spend the rest of my life getting to know God and Logan. I see Jesus in Logan so much and its amazing how God has poured out his love on me through having him in my life. Marriage is a great idea! God's love has never been so tangibly evident to me. I seriously dont think i could ask for more. Thank you Lord!

The Lord has brought me into the intro internship at the perfect timing! Not only has it given me immediate friends that are believers from all stages of life, but has already transformed the way I used to interact with God. I've always known salvation is not works based, but so many times I've known that in my head, but not lived it out in my heart. I tried to be a good church girl, someone God could really be pleased with and when I messed up (which was everyday in one way or another) I would feel too ashamed to run to him wholeheartedly. I thought ok I need to go read my Bible or do a good deed really quick before I try to really talk to the Lord. Then I could feel ok to come into his presence, because then he could be happy with me. The truth is my most righteous moment is as filthy rags to the Holy Lord God Almighty! We not only have salvation by grace, but his delight over us is also by grace! He literally looks down at me during my worst moment with the same love and del...

I am finally out of my transition year and have a home here in KC. It feels good :) I am getting used to living here and feeling more and more at home. I have also been meeting a few friends and hope to meet more and more. God has taken care of me like always and im excited to see what all is here for me ! I love being with Logan as usual and only wish we could see each other more!

School. I am over it, I can't stand it! It is boring at all levels and I have a bad case of senioritis. I like my weslian theology teacher though, dr balzar! Too tired...I tried to blog a little for heather and mom haha sorry it's lame.

I have been wanting chicken parmesian in our caf ever since I got back to Jbu! I've checked every night and hoped for it to no avail! But this day held more than I thought it would when I looked o line at the menu and saw chicken parmesian!!!!! I get it in fifteen minutes when the doors fly open and it is waiting for me. Good food is hard to come by here so this is a big deal. I'm going to my parents house (weird to say it's not mine) this weekend to celebrate an early birthday yay!! I'm still with Logan it has been fantastic! I'm back at school of course though, now he is here! Yay :)