Love Is In Bloom

I have been thinking a lot lately about what God wants to teach me during this time of pregnancy. I have been sick A LOT and have had a pretty tough time being preggo, but thankfully when I have been uncomfortable, Samuel has been perfectly comfortable! :) he has been healthy, active, and nourished even when I have felt my worst. One lesson I know i am learning is a little bit about the sacrifice of motherhood and how it strips away selfishness in many ways. Even from the beginning I have had to give up my own personal comfort for the sake of another's livelihood! Automatically every day is spent not just thinking about myself, but about the little life inside me that is completely dependent. A mother does not have the choice to be selfish when it comes to being a mommy, someone else's life depends on her sacrifice. I know the responsibility will only increase when he comes and even though being sick has been hard I am thankful for the lesson of losing my own comfort for the sa...

I am officially trying to work out 6 days a week! It is a tough goal but in good weather it should be fun to walk!

Growing up in my teenage years all the way up until I met Logan in college freshman year I struggled with severe acne. It isn't one of those things I'm exaggerating or thought was bad and really wasn't, it truly in all honesty was just a very severe case of acne. The pain physically and emotionally that it caused me was deeper than I can find words to say and it was only the power of God that could heal my pain. I got on the drug accutane and it changed my skin to almost perfect and changed my life in a way! Even after my skin was clear I had deep scars that were a constant reminder of what had been there. Thanks to my mom and aunt Sabrina i was able to get skin regeneration called fraxile three times which was painful, but so worth the result of no scars! I used to not look in a mirror when i washed my hands, afraid to look at the imperfections that stared back at me. It is amazing to be able to confidently look in a mirror and find clear skin when for so many years that w...

Hello! I am very bad at blogging but don't worry, when baby or the babies (i still have hope for twins) arrive I will keep y'all very posted and will bombard facebook and blog with pics! Yesterday marked my 14th week of pregnancy which I have been looking forward to for a long time! Supposedly that is when I was supposed to feel good again...but instead my head remained in the toilet and a migraine was added to the mix. I did go out with a friend for an hour, which was good until I turned green! Yesterday was a bad scenario bc I forgot my key and don't like to throw up in public, people get weird about it and i have to say "sorry pregnant" so they know I won't give them a disease. No one likes hearing this or being around this and I respect that it is just a bummer when I am locked out of my apartment. My friend drove me to Logan's school where I frantically looked and asked for him all the while knowing it was only a matter of time until I became a human ...

I was overjoyed yesterday to be able to hear my baby's heartbeat! I have to admit I had been worried about this visit and hopeful everything would be alright. Well, it was! :) I have been very sick recently, but since yesterday I have been feeling better. Part of me thinks that is bc I feel like I have purpose again! Feeling sick for weeks at a time has made me feel a little useless. Now more than ever I know nothing I go through for this baby is in vain! Thank you Lord!

I've spent the past two weeks trying to find ways to keep food down. Being nauseated really puts a damper on life. This is for a good cause though, a baby! I pray it is as healthy as can be as I feel so sick.

Logan and I are having a great time here in Kansas City! The Lord has been so faithful and kind to us these past 10 months of our marriage and I am so grateful. He has given us so much grace and poured out his kindness. I feel his presence with us and it is a wonderful feeling. I want to spend the rest of my life getting to know God and Logan. I see Jesus in Logan so much and its amazing how God has poured out his love on me through having him in my life. Marriage is a great idea! God's love has never been so tangibly evident to me. I seriously dont think i could ask for more. Thank you Lord!