Love Is In Bloom

"From his abundance we have all received one gracious blessing after another." John 1:16 I have been blown away and overwelmed by the goodness of the Lord to our little family. Looking back to the day we found out we were going to have a baby I am just overcome with thankfulness and amazement at how much God has paved the way for Samuel's arrival from health insurance needs, to housing needs, to babystuff needs and more. It was miraculous that I had maternity insurance maybe just a month or two before we found out about Samuel! Before that, we would have been in a tough place insurance wise and would have been in debt after this baby. I have been taken care of by a doctor since we were only 5 and a half weeks along and am so thankful for all the medical provision and appointments that I have been able to go to. We are SO thankful for this! I am still amazed everyday when I wake up in the miracle house that God provided for us! Only months ago I thought I would be...

I have been thinking a lot lately about what God wants to teach me during this time of pregnancy. I have been sick A LOT and have had a pretty tough time being preggo, but thankfully when I have been uncomfortable, Samuel has been perfectly comfortable! :) he has been healthy, active, and nourished even when I have felt my worst. One lesson I know i am learning is a little bit about the sacrifice of motherhood and how it strips away selfishness in many ways. Even from the beginning I have had to give up my own personal comfort for the sake of another's livelihood! Automatically every day is spent not just thinking about myself, but about the little life inside me that is completely dependent. A mother does not have the choice to be selfish when it comes to being a mommy, someone else's life depends on her sacrifice. I know the responsibility will only increase when he comes and even though being sick has been hard I am thankful for the lesson of losing my own comfort for the sa...

I am officially trying to work out 6 days a week! It is a tough goal but in good weather it should be fun to walk!

Growing up in my teenage years all the way up until I met Logan in college freshman year I struggled with severe acne. It isn't one of those things I'm exaggerating or thought was bad and really wasn't, it truly in all honesty was just a very severe case of acne. The pain physically and emotionally that it caused me was deeper than I can find words to say and it was only the power of God that could heal my pain. I got on the drug accutane and it changed my skin to almost perfect and changed my life in a way! Even after my skin was clear I had deep scars that were a constant reminder of what had been there. Thanks to my mom and aunt Sabrina i was able to get skin regeneration called fraxile three times which was painful, but so worth the result of no scars! I used to not look in a mirror when i washed my hands, afraid to look at the imperfections that stared back at me. It is amazing to be able to confidently look in a mirror and find clear skin when for so many years that w...

Hello! I am very bad at blogging but don't worry, when baby or the babies (i still have hope for twins) arrive I will keep y'all very posted and will bombard facebook and blog with pics! Yesterday marked my 14th week of pregnancy which I have been looking forward to for a long time! Supposedly that is when I was supposed to feel good again...but instead my head remained in the toilet and a migraine was added to the mix. I did go out with a friend for an hour, which was good until I turned green! Yesterday was a bad scenario bc I forgot my key and don't like to throw up in public, people get weird about it and i have to say "sorry pregnant" so they know I won't give them a disease. No one likes hearing this or being around this and I respect that it is just a bummer when I am locked out of my apartment. My friend drove me to Logan's school where I frantically looked and asked for him all the while knowing it was only a matter of time until I became a human ...

I was overjoyed yesterday to be able to hear my baby's heartbeat! I have to admit I had been worried about this visit and hopeful everything would be alright. Well, it was! :) I have been very sick recently, but since yesterday I have been feeling better. Part of me thinks that is bc I feel like I have purpose again! Feeling sick for weeks at a time has made me feel a little useless. Now more than ever I know nothing I go through for this baby is in vain! Thank you Lord!

I've spent the past two weeks trying to find ways to keep food down. Being nauseated really puts a damper on life. This is for a good cause though, a baby! I pray it is as healthy as can be as I feel so sick.