Love Is In Bloom

I believe that God uses children to praise him and tell of the Lord's glory (psalm 8:2) Yesterday my mom asked me if I have been talking to Samuel about Easter. I probably should have been, but I honestly forgot it was coming up so fast! He is going through a phase where he says no to almost anything-except if you say a truth about Jesus ,he will look at you with a big sincere smile and say "Yessssss!", "oh yes!", or smile and nod really big. He kept saying to me last week "what does God say? Hmm? What does God say?"And he would finish with "the Bible tells". This would remind me to read my Bible when I hadn't .He also likes to make anything into the shape of a cross and yesterday my mom said something like:"do you know that Jesus is our savior and died on the cross for our sins and rose again?" (Explaining Easter) and Samuel responded "YES!!!! Holy, Holy, Holy!" That is possibly one of the purest and truest responses...

            Some people are horrified by riding in airplanes, snakes, sharks, spiders etc., but for me, one of my biggest fears is the dreaded STOMACH BUG. I wake up sometimes in anxiety and I am just afraid I will feel nauseas, which makes me feel nauseas and turns into a horrible cycle. This fear started after I had two hyperemesis gravitum pregnancies. I think part of me is afraid the stomach bug will come and not leave for months at a time (the reality of my pregnancies), but another part of me just realizes it is really just that awful. It also really hurts my heart when I see other people feeling this horrible feeling and going through something like the stomach bug. I do not wish that feeling on anyone, ESPECIALLY my children.               Four nights ago, I woke up to my precious daughter screaming in her bed. She had thrown up and it had gotte...

I never want to forget... -The way Evelyn almost constantly sits in the splits and uses her pointer finger to search out your face- if she really likes you. That pointer finger is always ready to be in my business.;) - When Logan is out late at Pray Now and me and Samuel watch BBC Cranford together instead of going to bed. Or, I put him to bed and miss him too much and we decide to play some more, because he is really fun to be with. - The way Evelyn is so hilarious! She is just plain funny and makes me laugh every single day with her funny looks and optimistic outlook on life. She is like an energizer bunny and then all of a sudden she will sleep 6:30pm- 9am on a regular basis! I love how we both love a long nights sleep so much. (I wish Samuel did!hehe) - The feeling of Samuel crawling into our bed before the sun comes up and how he sometimes falls asleep between Logan and I...or most of the time doesn't, but still lays next to us giving us kisses or smili...

*I have had this post as a draft for a long time, but did not feel peace from God to post it yet. I needed to experience and learn a few more things before I finished and made it public. The story I talk about happened a couple of months ago. Hearing Hettie Lou speak this weekend put into words what I had been feeling in my heart, but was not sure how to say. I know how to say it now.:)*             I wanted to take Samuel to his favorite breakfast place and my mom said she would come with us. I had been up with Evelyn the night before and Samuel randomly woke up at 5:45, when he usually wakes up at 7:30. I was really tired and was looking forward to getting out and shaking off the horrible exhausted feeling that sometimes lingers if I stay at home. It had been a lot of days with no break and Samuel was in a season of being extra demanding and I felt at the end of my rope. There are times when toddlers need constant discipline before they realiz...

     My birthday wish is always the same every year and I am not afraid to share it, because I do not believe in magic or luck.;) I do believe in the power of prayer, miracles, and that God's word and Spirit are alive and active in my life, so I will share my "wish", which is more like a prayer. It is this: "To do God's will to the fullest extent, no matter the cost and to know him more deeply this year than ever before." I hope that you will pray that over me as I pray it over myself. I am excited for another chance to live another year for the one who gave everything for me-Jesus Christ. My blessings are more than I could have dared to hope for and I am so thankful! This is my first birthday with TWO kids! Things are not always easy and the road to this birthday with two kids had trials, but I am so full of joy and thankful for all that He has done this year in my life! Evelyn is my biggest present this year! Birthdays make me reflective and ...

      The song "Letting Go" by Steffany Frizzell has seemed to find me in moments I really need it this month. I know the Lord uses music to speak to my soul and help me make sense of things I am also feeling or going through. The words that have struck a chord for me are: "You've brought me to the end of myself   And this has been the longest road   Just when my hallelujah was tired   You gave me a new song   I'm letting go, I'm letting go   I'm letting go, and falling into You   I confess I still get scared sometimes   But perfect love comes rushing in   And all the lies that screamed inside go silent   Fear was no match for your love!!! IM LETTING GO..."           I am weary, I cannot lie. This month has been like trying to get out to the ocean while wave after wave keeps knocking me down physically and spiritually. It actually all started November 14, almost exactly a month...

*Note: I only write these at obscure hours or like today in the middle of listening to baby einstein and stopping for spit up clean ups and every other little thing you can imagine babies might need, so please excuse me if there are run on sentences, grammar mistakes etc! :) One post takes me like 1,000 stops and starts haha! I am not trying to write a book, just thoughts as jumbled as they may be! *       A lot of times in life there is something on my mind that I think is "too small" to talk much to God about. If I am spending time in intercession, shouldn't I pray for something BIG? These "small" things tend to be like a hang nail though, something that hurts and I can't get off my mind. Stuff that affects me every single moment and that is on the top of my mind. I had a rare chance to sit before the Lord and worship by myself two days ago and had a wonderful moment hearing from Jesus. I turned on my apple tv youtube and listened to Hillsong for a brief...