Love Is In Bloom

I honestly believe the hardships I endured during my pregnancy and the food poisoning horror the week of his due date have caused me to treasure my reward from it all (Samuel) all the more. The sweetness and absolute joy of his existence in my life seems even more wonderful since it took so much hardship to finally have him in my arms. I knew the moment I saw him I would do it all again in a heartbeat even if I only had one day with him. Even if I have an easy pregnancy next time, I will still treasure my new baby, but right now I am just talking about this one. :) God sure does bring beauty from ashes and I see that so clearly in my life right now! I tear up at least once a day when I am looking at him, because my heart is so full of love that my weak human heart can't hold it all in! The good kind of tears now :)! I want to write down for my own sake things I want to make sure I never forget about this time. I never want to forget... -The way you wait in your bassinet in th

Today is Samuel's two month birthday! And how fast time has gone...I hope life slows down even a little, because I already miss these days and they are still here. ;) I am beyond amazed that God chose me to be Samuel's mom. God loves him even more than I do and he chose me to be the one to care for him on this earth, how amazing and sobering that is. He chose me to spend the long night hours with him when he can't sleep, to take care of him when he is sick, to be the one he looks for when he's sleepy, hungry or just needs comfort, to change all those diapers, clean up his baby messes, and wipe his tears. He chose me to be the one he smiles with, plays with, and discovers life with for the first time. He chose me to show him how to enjoy life, enjoy God, and enjoy people. He chose me to discipline and love him in the Lord, to raise him up into the man God wants him to be, to teach him about the Lord, and do all that I can to show him Jesus every single day in every sing