2 Corinthians 4:17

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" For our light and momentary afflictions are preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison."

I can truly say, I know what suffering feels like. Having symptoms of the stomach flu constantly day and night for weeks at a time due to excessive nausea in pregnancy has humbled me beyond words. To barely feel alive and get to the point where my son stopped reaching for me, knowing someone else was the one who was taking care of him and that mommy wasn't smiling or even out of bed for the day. Heart breaking. Affliction. Suffering. Why me? Why does pregnancy give some people a glow and me, feeling like I'm on my death bed? I don't think I'll ever know the answer, but I know the glory that is to come from this suffering far outweighs it all. I am not out of the woods yet, at ten weeks pregnant, BUT God has already done a miracle in me allowing me to function. Samuel reaches for me again as well:) I am on many medications and pray to be able to wean from them in the months to come, but am thankful for the use of miracles and medicine to have kept me out of the emergency room and hopefully soon full time taking care of my son. I begged God to please give Samuel his mommy back and ask that you would continue to pray for me and for all of us. I want to be the one taking care of my family and I feel the miracles from all the praying people supporting me in their faithful prayers for me. I am so grateful to be getting another child! There is no other reason worth going through this. I can't wait for May!!!:) and I can't wait to full time take care of MY babies all by MYSELF as I am healthy! It is my joy to be their caregiver. I never want to take that for granted again. Thank you to all who have helped in so many ways, he was in the best of hands! (my parents)

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